Trying to figure out this life.

earworm: [avril lavigne - I'm with you]

I'm standing on a bridge

I'm waiting in the dark

I thought that you'd be here by now

There's nothing but the rain

No footsteps on the ground

I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you

I'm looking for a place

I'm searching for a face

Is anybody here I know

'Cause nothing's going right

And everything's a mess

And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you

Oh why is everything so confusing

Maybe I'm just out of my mind

Yea yea yea It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you

Take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you

Take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you

I'm with you...

This will be my final post. I'd initially thought of deleting it altogether, but I've had this blog url since 2002, so I couldn't bear to.

My darlings in happier times.

An hour before Nelly died.

My life will go on as per normal of course -- I will continue train hard, study even harder and live life to the fullest (I seriously mean it this time). I regret not taking the dog out for walks and not taking photos with her on my 21st; I simply didn't expect her to not live past her 5th birthday. A good friend told me that a part of me died when she died and I fully agree with him. Maybe someday I'll get the answers I'm looking for.

Now I finally realise what people mean when they say that martial arts is a way of life. Ju-jitsu has become a way of life for me and I'm lovin' every minute of it. I got into it entirely by accident, but I really believe it wasn't by chance. I have no idea if I will go for grading, because I feel like I'm not up to standard, but then again, there's still time to train for it. ;)

Many thanks for reading my blog since 2002, in spite of the fact that I've been updating pretty sporadically in the past three years or so.

Take care and have fun, y'all! =D